...but I'm re-evaluating my relationship with weight and food.
I don't want to be unhappy for the rest of my life because of my issues, I want to have a body that I'm okay with.
I might go into self-recovery because I know that I'm smarter than my illness. I've been thinking about going to the gym and eating 1300cal to 1500cal a day... like a normal person would. Hopefully when I don't think about my diet too much, I'll realize one day that I've dropped to my goal weight of 110-115lbs.
I don't know... I'll keep you guys updated.
even tho i have my own food issues, when i was really sick last year with a cyst in my neck, my mom fed me regular meals...it hurt to swallow, let alone breathe. so she was taking care of me and i couldn't exercise bc i couldn't even stand. my body was fighting an infection for about a month. i lost about 15 pounds from being fed cake and subs and pasta and not exercising...it was just all "proper" portions.so trust me, you will lose weight just undertaking a proper eating routine. you don't even need to exercise, altho its good for you. but really...its all about ur food intake. i thought i was eating sooooooo much when i was sick bc my mom was forcing me...i wouldn't have eaten anything bc of how shitty i was feeling...but anyway, eat normal portions of anything and everything and you will lose weight. xoxo a
ReplyDeleteThanks Andie, you're such a huge support to me.
DeleteI've gotta control my need to eat, but it's such a human instinct that it's almost impossible to deny it when I'm hungry. That's when I binge, when I'm humanly hungry. I don't want to be stupid and harm myself in any way. Like you said, everything in moderation and my weight will follow.
Thanks again girlie. :D
Love reading your comments and experiences. I hope you're doing okay too.