Pooped

Now that I'm not eating as many calories as I did before, I can confidently say that I'm feeling the effects of my restrictive eating regime.
My body felt heavier with the amount of effort I had to put out while getting out of bed. It took a lot of effort to mentally prepare myself for what the day had ahead of me.
I was thinking about weighing myself, blogging, putting on my make-up, brushing/straightening/styling my hair, getting dressed, smoking, possibly eating something, then going to work, being at work, looking forward to all my breaks while I work, getting home, and then finally relaxing. It wouldn't be till the end of the evening until I could relax and think about my free time.

Work went all right. It wasn't very different from yesterday. I guess you could say that it was easier then my last shift. But even though it was easier, it definitely wasn't easy to work through all of it. Again, with the restrictiveness of it all, my energy levels weren't where they used to be. I had my mind of food the entire time, and I was really looking forward to eating anything when I wasn't.
Since I skipped breakfast this morning and had a super low calorie coffee, I felt jittery and tired at the same time like a strange and unfamiliar high neither great nor bad.
By the time it was my second break, I was two hours into my shift. I was looking forward to having a cigarette, eating the small morsel of food I'm allowing myself, emptying out my system, and relaxing for a small half-hour time-frame which feels like minutes no matter how much I try to savour it.
Then I had to go back to work.
I waited patiently for my second break and thanked the Gods of Time when it was time for me to go.
Again, I savoured my break, headed back to work, closed the store for the night, and headed back home again.
And just when I think I can relax to my heart's content, I see SC (RM's long-time buddy) hanging out in the living room, greeting me with the friendliest 'heeeeeeey!. To my surprise I didn't feel like having him over was annoying at all. In fact, I was really glad to see him here.
When he comes over, SC and I sit on the couch together and just share thoughts of our day, our drawings, and things that are awesome on our Android phones.
He's starting to be like a big brother to me, but we're still on the new-friend basis and things are still a bit awkward between us.
So he stayed over for a while and invited another friend over who seems to be super tight with him.
We smoked a jay, talked, and derped. It wasn't until 1:30AM-ish when SC and his friend decided to bounce.

I'm proud of what I did today, eating-wise.
- Coffee with Soy Milk and Splenda: 100cal.
- Toast with Vegan Margarine: 250cal
- RFTBB Sanwich: 320cal
- Spinach & Feta Dinner Wrap: 280cal
Total: 950cal

Actually, I'm super proud of what I've done today.
This new eating regime is easy enough for me to continue, but challenging enough to make me to struggle to the end of the day.

I have no idea what I'll eat for breakfast and lunch tomorrow. Dinner, I'm confident about since I'll be hanging out with some old high-school friends at Red Robin's. Thank god Red Robin's has a section of their website dedicated to nutrition and calories. I've planned out my meal to be around 250cal.
I'll definitely eat something in the morning before I go grocery shopping. I know that I'll end up on a crazed binge if I don't, so eating something will be a precautionary step.
I'll have a low calorie bowl of oatmeal for breakfast at about 240cal.

240 + 250 = 490cal
950cal - 490cal = 460cal

Lunch and a snack will have to be around 460cal.
I'll have an apple and some veggies.
I dunno, I haven't decided yet.

Anyways, it's time to hit the bed.
I'll post more in the morning.
Goodnight. <3