I went over my calorie budget today. Looks like I wasn't strong enough to resist the HUGE TOWER OF ONION RINGS that stood in the middle of the table. Thank fully, I only had 4 HUGE FUCKING ONION RINGS. UGH!
I'm super fucking disappointed with myself... but I'll just carry on with my original plan and remain calm.
1 Spinach Feta Wrap: 280cal
2 Toasts w/ Vegan Margarine: 250cal
1/2 Veggie Juice: 80cal
Veggie Lettuce Bun Burger, w/ Undressed Salad: 210cal
Onion Rings of DEATH: 450cal
Total....GASP!!
1270cal
RAGE!
Fuck, man. If I didn't have those onion rings, I would've been under... but what's done is done. I can't dwell on it any longer.
On the bright side, if I were a normal person trying to lose weight the healthy way, 1270cal is ideal.
I feel... bloated. My stomach is all bubbly trying to digest the grease and fat. Ugh... I'm gonna be gassy too (sorry TMI).
Aside from the eating, spending time with my high school gal pals was fun. Even though it was a very brief dinner and shop I wouldn't have traded for the world.
We ended up talking about this one girl we knew from high school who suddenly had and anorexia, recovered, and is now vegan, 'happy', and 'normal'. They bashed on her a lot... and I didn't like it. They were ignorant about what she must've gone through. I, of course, defended her in the most subtle way that I could, and that's when I realized it, my friends wont understand my problems if I ever opened up to them. I can't trust them. They'll just judge me.
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