Well, so much for staying on the "diet". I don't know how many calories I'm over but I did eat a fair bit of food. Nothing ridiculous, but if I have to ball park it, I'd say I ate around... 1300 - 1500cal? It's a fairly large amount compared to what I've been surviving on for the past couple weeks, but it's better than binging then feeling horrible. I can't say that I'm happy about eating this amount of food, but I'm glad I did it to connect and bond with my mom. She's the one and only person I need to hide this whole eating issue from since it would crush her to nothing if she found out.
I'm still going to weigh myself on the scale tomorrow morning, but I now I'm going to be super disappointed with the results. I'm going to expect 122-123 pounds considering how much I ate, how much water I'm retaining, and how much I'm backed up. I took a couple of laxative pills and hopefully those will kick-in in the morning.
Other then that, it's been a fairly good day.
Well, goodnight everyone. It's time for me to brainwash myself with thinspiration, youtube videos, and mantras.
<3
UPDATE: @ 10:55pm
Breakfast tomorrow will be...
Oranges, 450g: 225cal
Coffee w/ Soy & Splenda: 75cal
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