120.5 & Sick

I think from now on, I'll log my weight on the blog post's title, that way I can archive my progress a bit easier.
So yes, I've gained 0.3 pounds since yesterday. I'm hoping it's because I'm retaining water from my chicken broth dinner last night and my digestive tracks is being a slow idiot.
Why the chicken broth dinner? Well, turns out that I'm getting sick. And I should be overjoyed by this because we all know that sick people lose weight, but I'm not happy at all. I hate feeling the slightest bit weak, both physically and mentally. It'll soon hurt to move and I would just want to be lazy all day, and my willpower will start to waiver towards the bad side. I don't want my efforts to be for nothing. Ever since I've started this whole strict new eating habit I'm discovering new things about myself that I wouldn't have really noticed before the new regime. I love making rules and following them, I love the feeling of control I have over my body, I love seeing my efforts of the scale whether the numbers are good or bad, and I can put myself in a really good mindset which prevents me from binging and messing up.
Even though I gained a bit of weight, I'm not disappointed at all. Looking at the start weight and now... I didn't think I was going to be here so quick. Even though it's only a 5 pounds weight loss, it's 5 pounds I lost to this day and not in the future somewhere where I'm grossly overweight.
If I weren't so fucked in the head, I would stop now and try to maintain this weight, but because I have a history will eating/body image issues I'll keep going until I'm satisfied with the results.
My goal weight keeps jumping around. On one hand I want to have a healthy weight of 115lbs... but the ED side of me wants a weight of 95lbs. Then I thinking that I should have 105lbs as my UGW only because it's in the middle of what I want and when I'm at that weight I can fit into a size zero pair of pants... I don't know though. Every time I think about this I always get confused and frustrated...
Anyways, enough about this...
I'm going to plan out what to eat for today.

Breakfast, Cereal & Milk: 250cal
1st Break, Coffee w/ Soy Milk & Splenda: 100cal, + Spinach Feta Wrap: 280cal - 380cal
2nd Break, RFTBB Sandwich: 320cal
Nothing after work...
Total: 950cal

I hope this goes as planned... I probably wont have much of an appetite since I'm sick, but we'll see how this goes.
I'll update soon.