So, I'm back and a little chunkier.
I'm gonna have to start logging my foods again.
B: Oatmeal w/ Peaches & Greek Yogurt: 240cal
S: Tuna w/ Dressing & Melba Toast: 280cal
S: Coffee w/ Toast & Whitener: 200cal
L: Cheese Slices & Tortilla Wrap: 310cal
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Food Plan: 02/05/2012
Meal #1: Breakfast Wrap...
- Spinach, Egg White, Whole Wheat Tortilla, Ketchup: 235cal
Meal #2: First Break...
- Coffee w/ Soy & Splenda: 75cal
- Oatmeal w/ Peaches: 170cal
Meal #3: Second Break...
- Starbucks RFTBB Sandwich: 320cal
Meal #4: After Work...
- Balsamic Tuna Salad w/ Spinach, Tomato, Lite Mayo, Tortilla Wrap: 400cal
Meal #5: "Cake": 330cal
TOTAL: 1530cal
- Spinach, Egg White, Whole Wheat Tortilla, Ketchup: 235cal
Meal #2: First Break...
- Coffee w/ Soy & Splenda: 75cal
- Oatmeal w/ Peaches: 170cal
Meal #3: Second Break...
- Starbucks RFTBB Sandwich: 320cal
Meal #4: After Work...
- Balsamic Tuna Salad w/ Spinach, Tomato, Lite Mayo, Tortilla Wrap: 400cal
Meal #5: "Cake": 330cal
TOTAL: 1530cal
February Plan
I've been letting myself eat whatever I wanted this past week, since I've been re-evaluating what my goals truly are. I was also thinking about my current eating situation and how it's been taking over my life and how sick and tired I am for always letting myself down. My ultimate goals aren't realistic for my body and I know it too and yet I always find myself reaching for them.
So, after a week of eating whatever, and weighing myself every morning after each day of food freedom, I'm currently 121.6 pounds and I'm slowly gaining. I've been eating WAY over 1300cal each day and I'm not proud of it one bit.
So, my UGW will be 110lbs, and I know that this weight will be perfect for me since my periods stop and my hair falls out when I'm below 110cal. This goal weight of mine is the lowest I can go without compromising my health. I'll also be satisfied with 115lb, since this used to be my normal weight for years and years, but I feel I need a challenge and even at 115lbs I was skinny-fat and wasn't 100% confident with myself.
As for a daily calorie intake, I'll stick with 1300cal. I'll work my way into getting a year membership at a gym and some gym clothes/shoes, but for now... since I can't afford to go to the gym I'll try to do some at-home stuff and stick to my diet to the point I'm super comfortable with it.
I'm hoping by the end of spring I'll be able to buy a bikini and enjoy my summer, my birthday, and my confidence.
So, my lovely readers, please don't be disappointed with me. I know a lot of you are looking for anorexic/pro-ana girls to follow but I'm not a supporter of it in anyway (although I find it terribly fascinating). Please continue to read my blog and continue to support me in your own way. This space is all I have, it's the only place were I can pour my true feeling out.
This is my February plan... I know I'm strong enough to do this.
I'll post my beginning weight tomorrow morning, and from there it officially starts.
So, after a week of eating whatever, and weighing myself every morning after each day of food freedom, I'm currently 121.6 pounds and I'm slowly gaining. I've been eating WAY over 1300cal each day and I'm not proud of it one bit.
So, my UGW will be 110lbs, and I know that this weight will be perfect for me since my periods stop and my hair falls out when I'm below 110cal. This goal weight of mine is the lowest I can go without compromising my health. I'll also be satisfied with 115lb, since this used to be my normal weight for years and years, but I feel I need a challenge and even at 115lbs I was skinny-fat and wasn't 100% confident with myself.
As for a daily calorie intake, I'll stick with 1300cal. I'll work my way into getting a year membership at a gym and some gym clothes/shoes, but for now... since I can't afford to go to the gym I'll try to do some at-home stuff and stick to my diet to the point I'm super comfortable with it.
I'm hoping by the end of spring I'll be able to buy a bikini and enjoy my summer, my birthday, and my confidence.
So, my lovely readers, please don't be disappointed with me. I know a lot of you are looking for anorexic/pro-ana girls to follow but I'm not a supporter of it in anyway (although I find it terribly fascinating). Please continue to read my blog and continue to support me in your own way. This space is all I have, it's the only place were I can pour my true feeling out.
This is my February plan... I know I'm strong enough to do this.
I'll post my beginning weight tomorrow morning, and from there it officially starts.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
I'm still here...
...but I'm re-evaluating my relationship with weight and food.
I don't want to be unhappy for the rest of my life because of my issues, I want to have a body that I'm okay with.
I might go into self-recovery because I know that I'm smarter than my illness. I've been thinking about going to the gym and eating 1300cal to 1500cal a day... like a normal person would. Hopefully when I don't think about my diet too much, I'll realize one day that I've dropped to my goal weight of 110-115lbs.
I don't know... I'll keep you guys updated.
I don't want to be unhappy for the rest of my life because of my issues, I want to have a body that I'm okay with.
I might go into self-recovery because I know that I'm smarter than my illness. I've been thinking about going to the gym and eating 1300cal to 1500cal a day... like a normal person would. Hopefully when I don't think about my diet too much, I'll realize one day that I've dropped to my goal weight of 110-115lbs.
I don't know... I'll keep you guys updated.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)