Insomniatic Thoughts

I don't know what's going on with my sleeping pattern, but lately I can't sleep until 4am or something insane like that. It's probably all the ED thoughts I'm having when I have a moment of silence alone. It's bothering me... a lot actually.
It's a vicious cycle; I feel tired and then I go to bed, I lay in bed and try to fall asleep, hours go by and I'm still trying to get comfortable, the stress of going to bed frustrates me, and the frustration keeps me awake...

I have work tomorrow from 1:30pm to 9:45pm again...fuck.
I'm looking forward to my day off on Thursday. I know that I'm not going to see RM because I know I'm going to waste my time when I go over to his place. He's entertaining, I'll give him that, but nowadays I getting bored of him or at least the routine we go through when we hang out.
I'm thinking that I should clean my place up, purge all the bad foods that's in my kitchen and start fresh with my new plan. Then, maybe plan something out that'll help me loose some weight. Maybe I should go to the craft store and get myself a few things to busy my hands? I don't know, it's worth a shot. OR, crazy thought, I should get myself those 10lbs dumbbells I saw at London Drugs and weight train at home... I don't know though, it could be a waste of money.

So when I wake up tomorrow, if I ever fall asleep, I'll have a protein shake. 130cals. On my first break at work, I'll have a packet of plain instant oatmeal. 110cal. Then for my second break, I'm going to go to the nearest self-serve salad bar and get myself a couple of hard boiled eggs. 150cal. And when I get home, I'll have a can of tuna before I go to bed. 140cal.
So my total intake for... I guess technically "today" would be... 530cal.
But before I go to work, I'll buy a 2L bottle of Coke Zero.
I'll also have to take my ECA stack 2-3 times a day if I want to lose fat-weight.

I also have another day off on Saturday, and JK said that we should go watch a movie together after he's done work.
Sigh, I miss him... or at least I wish he was here right now... Even though I work with him and see him at least 4 days a week, we hardly have a chance to just chill and be ourselves minus the work-attitude.
I wish he was here right now so that he could cuddle me until I fall asleep...
Hmmm, I guess I'm feeling intensely lonely right now, or at least starved for affection...

I'm in a confused state of mind. I don't really want anything except for my fat body to get thinner... Someday. It'll happen. I just gotta have patience and be persistent.
Today's the start of a new month, and so begins the plan at this very moment.