End To A Crazy Year

Today I had....
- Oatmeal: 260cal
- Eggs: 140cal
- Apple: 100cal
- Chicken Sammie: 360cal
- Yogurt Parfait: 270cal
- Coffee w/ Soy Milk: 50cal
- Apple: 100cal
- Udon Soup: 310cal
Total Intake: 1580cal
I'm not too disappointed with myself because this is a bit below maintenance eating for me.

Work was good today. I saw all my regulars and they all wished me a great new year. Work also ended early so now I have time to chill and unwind. I'm not doing anything for NYE since I really never do anything during the holidays. But, I am going to wait until midnight strikes so that I can make my wish. I'm superstitious that way.

2010 was a roller coaster of good and bad.
Jan: I had to deal with gaining a bunch of weight after self-recovery, and I moved into my parents place they're living in now from our old house up on the mountain.
Feb: I quit my old job as a cook at some bakery cafe which also made me gain weight. Lol. My ex-boyfriend and I stopped talking when he moved to Montreal back in January.
March: I was extremely depressed.
April: I was extremely depressed and living in solitude.
May: I met RM for the first time.
June: I got my current job; coffee shop girl. Lol.
July: I worked full-time, got a credit card, my drivers license (learners), my ID card, and pretty much prepped and planed everything to move out.
August: I finally moved out, and lived with SS.
September: I moved in with NS and left SS behind.
October: Lived life according to my desires.
November: Continued to live life happily, and created this blog.
December: I worked, played, dieted, and lived freely. And I still do these things and will continue to live happily for 2011.

I've said before that I have a good feeling about 2011. It's a fresh year for a fresh start. And for some reason, I have a gut feeling that everything will be okay. I'll become thin, be surrounded by people I love, and continue to be my own person and love life for the first time ever.

For the new year, I expect myself to...
- Lose weight.
- Be overall healthier, with healthier thoughts.
- Blog almost daily.
- Continue to love RM and support his needs and make him as happy as possible.
- Apply for school/ Find out what I want to do with my life.
- Paint/Draw/Read/and get back into everything I used to love doing. (I'm suffering for a bit of depression ATM.)
- Reconcile with my family... although I don't want to.
- Find a better paying job.
- Work on my looks; ie. tattoos, hair color, clothes, etc.
- Buy a bed. Lol.
- Make more friends, and continue to strengthen my current friendships.
- Budget more.

I do have a lot of expectations for myself for the new year but one whole year is a lot of time to get everything done. I just hope that I'll love everything about my life and myself because then it'll be easier for me to deal with all the bad things in my life.

Tomorrow, I'll aim to have....
B: Oatmeal: 260cal// Apple: 100cal
L: Eggs: 140cal// Protein: 130cal
D: SF&FF Yogurt: 230cal
S: Apple: 100cal// Oatmeal: 260cal
Total: 1220cal
Obviously, this might change, but I'm hoping that I'll be good.
Ciao, and see you in the new year.