Bleh...

Haven't weighed myself in 2 days. Kinda sucks because I've been restricting my calories to a decent level. I've been staying over at RM's place for the past to nights. The first visit was a 'I haven't seen you for a while, I miss you, and you finally got your phone fixed' visit, and the second visit was a 'RM's sick, and I don't want him to be alone and feeling like sick' visit. Those nights were good, actually, great. I didn't realize how much I've missed him until I was on transit going towards his place. I've missed his voice, his touches, his cuddles, and his goofy personality. I felt like I was home when I stepped into his place. But I'm also glad that I'm finally back home and just relaxing. I've been going straight to his place right after work so even though it's been great, it's been also exhausting as well.

Work was alright. The usual. Nothing's been really out of the ordinary so things haven't been too stressful. I did get my period the other day though, so I'm in pain, well as physically tired. Tomorrow's my day off so I'm going to take it easy, do some chores, visit my mom and bleach my hair again.

So yeah, that's what happened the past couple of days.
Oh, and my roommate brought cinnamon buns from cobs bread today, and she offered them to me. Even though I still have the mentality to eat a lot, I said that I wasn't hungry and I was too tired to eat them. Haha. So, I guess my obsessive calorie counting and eating mostly savoury things put me in a new habit. Lets see how long this goes. I can kinda feel my willpower dwindling. Maybe it's because I'm too tired now. I'm just burnt-out from working and socializing too much. Lol.

I'm kinda worried that my period is going to fuck up my weight loss even though I've been really good so far. Water retention is a big deal when I'm on my period. I kinda feel already bloated from it. So, I told myself that if I gained or stayed the same, tomorrow morning, then it's due to my body being stupidly-girly. I'm just scared that it's going to smash my will to nothing and I'll lose control. I guess If I keep telling myself this, I'll be prepared for it. After all, persistence and patience are the only things that are going to get me to where I want to me.

So, I'll wrap it up here.
Thanks everyone for reading and taking the time to listen to my thoughts. It means a lot to me.
I'll blog tomorrow morning about my weigh-in.
Goodnight, and stay strong.