So Confusing!

My infrequent posts and failures are from my lack of motivation and self-loathing. Like most of us, our plans are all or nothing, and obviously that works against us when we want weight loss to happen. If we fail, we end up binging or hurting ourselves, and if we stick with our ridiculous-restrictive plans we're going to end up binging sometime soon if our motivation dwindles.
These past few days have been stressful, to say the least. I'm tired of failing all the time, so I think this is a good time to reprogram the way I see my own weight loss and how I go about it.
A.) I need to take care of my body in a healthy way, because I only have one body and one chance.
B.) Eating the right foods is 80% of weight loss and feeling great. This alone is a great reason to start treating my body right.
C.) My lack of an immune system and my body's ability to generate heat is being compromised with what I've been doing to it all these years.
D.) I want to be normal, energetic, strong, sociable, confident, positive, and focused.
Today, I've eaten about 1300cal.
B: Whole Wheat Bagel (210) and an Apple (100) - 310cal
S: 1 Large Hard-Boiled Egg - 70cal
L: Bagel and Apple again - 310cal
S: Sweet Glazed Cashews - 285cal
D: 3 Eggs (210) with hot sauce (10) and an Apple (100) - 320cal
Total: 1295cal
This total amount of calories is 500 below my daily output of calories. So, I'm feeling great about it. I want to lose weight the normal way and feel great about myself doing so.
Tomorrow, I'll have...
B: Bagel and 2 Eggs - 350cal
S: Apple - 100cal
L: Oatmeal - 260cal
S: Bagel & Apple - 310cal
D: 2 Eggs and Apple - 240cal
Total: 1260cal
So, I guess, this is going to be the new me. I'm ready. Bring it. :D