NS and I had a day off from work yesterday so we decided to hang out and spend some quality time together. We barely get a chance to act buddy-buddy since we're always tired after work or we have other obligations to do. So we ended up getting a pedicure at the mall and shop around. Everything started out great, we were having fun and the day was zooming past us. But as the day eventually wore on, so did my patience for her. I never realized how much she talks, lol, and it's actually beginning to piss me off. All she talks about is her store's manager and how much she can't do her job, her ugly emo boyfriend from work, and her crappy family life and how her sister is such a 'princess' and how her mom's a fucking 'drama queen'. Even though she's a very nice girl, she's so damn negative all the time and it's giving me a fucking migraine.
If it gets out of hand, I'll have to have a heart to heart with her and ask her to stop being so negative or at least not to dump so much negativity on me.
I'm a quiet, private person, but she always clings and talks. Something about it doesn't give me a good feeling. I love her to death and I think of her as family but if this keeps up I'm gonna have to do something to change the situation. Plus, her fucking ugly boyfriend (who's a year younger than her; 19) slept over, and was noisy as fuck when he left in the morning. Idiot. I can't seem to have any privacy at all. And I don't really have a safe-haven since Ryan's being a fucking dumb ass and being a depressed little bitch. Fuck. I don't know if I want to see him tonight because... oh wait, lol, fuck, I just realized why everything is pissing me off. Oh yes, I got my period the other day so I think my PMS is getting to me.
So, change of subject here, I thought I was pregnant for the longest time since I haven't had a proper period in forever; my fault... actually, since I used my birth control pills to skip periods. I can't be bothered with them. They drain whatever energy I don't have and my iron levels which (I can only assume) is really low to being with. I'm actually glad I finally realized that I'm just PMSing. Sucks to be a girl eh? All the more reason to lose weight and not even get them.
Anyways, yeah, Ryan wants to see me tonight and give me my money and stuff back, so I guess I'll have to see him this one last time. Ugh, so frustrating, since I have to see him after work which is around 10:30pm. I'll be fucking exhausted by then. I'll just see him, and then just leave him. I want my space away from him only because I know it'll be super painful.
Yesterday's calorie intake wasn't too bad. About 1000cal. I'm not going to log what I ate yesterday since I'm too lazy. And for today, I had exactly 600cal which gives me another 500cal to work with the entire day.
Bleh. I fucking hate having my period.
There. Done.
Goodbye.
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