Just Waiting...

It's been a while since I've posted anything.
I'm sure by now you're all tired of me complaining about life. So, today I'll be focusing on all the good things that have happened to me and what I have yet to achieve.
About a couple weeks ago I was going through all my old posts and I've stumbled upon my new years resolution post.

These were my expectations...
"For the new year, I expect myself to...
- Lose weight.
- Be overall healthier, with healthier thoughts.
- Blog almost daily.
- Continue to love RM and support his needs and make him as happy as possible.
- Apply for school/ Find out what I want to do with my life.
- Paint/Draw/Read/and get back into everything I used to love doing. (I'm suffering for a bit of depression ATM.)
- Reconcile with my family... although I don't want to.
- Find a better paying job.
- Work on my looks; ie. tattoos, hair color, clothes, etc.
- Buy a bed. Lol.
- Make more friends, and continue to strengthen my current friendships.
- Budget more."

Although I haven't lost mush weight, I've pretty much accomplished most of my expectations. I now think about my health over weight loss more so than before. I'm getting into the habit of blogging more. I still love RM and still support his needs and his happiness. I've finally figured out what I want to do with my life. I've gotten into my old hobbies again and I'm totally excited for more. I'm not as depressed as I used to be; in fact, I haven't cried for no apparent reason for a while now. I'm now closer to my family more than ever and I'm damn well glad that I have those relationships back. I've been promoted to a shift supervisor and I'm now earning more than before. I'm now blonde (since I'm of Korean decent, I naturally have black hair) and I've received a lot of compliments from many people, I have a HUGE tattoo of wings on my back, and my ears are stretched, and I'm finally loving the way I look style-wise). I finally have a bed, although it was a hand-me-down. I've made more friends and I'm looking forward to more, and finally I have a grasp on how much I spend and whatnot.

8 months. It took me 8 months to accomplish most of what I've planned at the beginning of the year. I now have 4 more months left and I know for a fact that I can get the remaining tasks done.
I have to keep reminding myself that I'm worth it and that I'm in full control of my life.
I'm excited for the future, for a change, and I can see the light at the end of the self-hating tunnel. If I can continue to love myself more and more each day, whatever I want will manifest itself into reality and I'll be living the dream.
:) but I guess only time can tell eh?

Well, I guess that's it for now.
I'll blog some time soon.
Take care and be strong.