Back Online

I've been internetless for a week or so, and now I'm finally back online.
I can finally look at my collection of thinspo, watch videos on EDs, use facebook, etc, etc.
I haven't weighed myself in a while, and I'm kind of afraid to only because I haven't been sticking to any sort of diet plan since I last posted. My life is going to change dramatically in October, meaning... I'll be moving in with RM.
((RM, for those of you who don't remember, is the guy that I've been seeing for more than a year now. We not officially together since we both have commitment issues, but we make an effort to see each other at least 2 days a week. He's my best friend, my favourite person in the whole world, my life-coach, my bro-ski; he's pretty much my friend who acts like my boyfriend minus the status/label))
I'll be leaving my current roommate/best friend behind, the north shore, the physical closeness to my family, and almost everything I'm familiar with. Even though the move is only 45 minutes away by car, it's the farthest I've ever been from where I am now. It's a bit scary but exciting too.
I've also just realized something unsavoury in the past week too, and it's how clingy and needy NS is towards me. She cried everyday for 4 days because I'll be leaving her behind in pursuit of my career growth. She's also immature when it comes to handling stressful situations and she's also stubborn when it comes to change. We're both 21, young but at an adult age, and so it's time to think differently. She even said at some point that "being an adult doesn't mean that you can do whatever you want, it's about doing shit that you don't want to do in pursuit of what you want" so why is it that she can't follow her own advice?
I'm glad that I'll be living with someone less needy and emotional, and I think the space and time away from her will be beneficial. It'll give her time to grow mentally, gain her independence, etc.
Anyhoo, yeah. I'm moving with with RM, getting a new job, and starting my art career as a well known free-lance artist.
It took me a long time to recover from the emotional trauma that EC Univeristy did to me (about 2 and a half year) but I finally have the desire to draw and paint again and it's something that I'll try to never lose again.
Oh and since I'll be moving in with RM it'll help with my weight loss journey because I'll always want to look good around him and so I'll be more conscious of my body and what goes in it.
I'm hoping that I'll quit smoking too because a lot of the trigger for smoking comes from my current job.
I believe that this whole move in the beginning of october will change me for the better. I'm scared because it might change things between RM and I but I'm willing to take that chance. If I fall, I'll stand up and try again and if I succeed, I'll take flight and soar till the day I die. It's all about the fight and desire of what I want, because it'll later manifest itself into being and at that point I'll be untouchable and my life will be perfect.