I haven't posted in a while. NS and living in the district that I do has been more stressful than usual. After my vacation, I was scheduled to work 6 days in a row. I have just now finished 5, and tomorrow will be my last shift until my day off. Joy. They were all early morning shifts too, so I've been horribly sleep deprived and not in focus with my eating because of that. I'm pretty sure I'm back in the 30s but I'm too scared to step on the scale and see what the real number is. I'm a bit disappointed with myself, but all my other issues have placed my weight/eating on hold.
NS is constantly crowding me again/still. And last night she brought over 3 people at 10pm even though she knew I worked super early at 5:15am. I was "sleeping" when they all walked through the door, and I was so pissed off I asked RM if I could just stay at his place until I have to work another early shift. So, currently, I'm in his living room, on the couch, on my laptop, just venting, and just hoping that I'll never NS ever again after I move out. At this point, I can finally consider her just nothing; not a best friend.
NS's ex-boyfriend also stayed over, which really bothers me because their whole situation is so fucked up, and when the day that Liam fucks another girl, I'm not gonna fucking pick up the pieces and console NS. Fuck that. I warned her. Multiple times. Plus, I even told her. "Yeah, I know" would be what she says, but I don't think she actually "knows" how fucked she is when he leaves her for good.
Plus, everyday I'm realizing that she's exactly what she hates; she's a cheap, fake, socially awkward person, digging for deals/haggling/stealing shit, who always complains, doesn't shut the fuck up, etc.
Plus, another reason why I don't want to be friends with her is because she expects too much from me. I'm just her friend, nothing more. she says shit like "When I picture my future, I always imagine that you would be there." seriously, I'm not your fucking wife. She also says that "we'll be roommate 30 years from now, and once you leave RM behind it'll just be you and me". Sigh, she's fucking creepy obsessed with me. If only she knew how inappropriate she's being.
I can safely say that I wouldn't care if I don't see her again. From this point on, I'm through being best friends with her. she a fucking stranger to me now.
a stranger.
Your "friend" has strange attitude to you, she should think about what you want.
ReplyDeleteToo bad you have much work, but I can tell you that I'm gaining most when I'm having fun like almost 10 lbs during summer holidays.