Sigh,,,

I think... I'm depressed. No. I know that I'm depressed.
Just a few hours ago, I'm been having this odd 'there's-an-empty-cavity-where-my-heart-and-lungs-are-supposed-to-be' feeling, and I can't seem to shake it off.
I'm starting to panic a little, and for no apparent reason at all.
Right now, I have the urge to cry, and the thing on my mind is; "I dropped out of university and now I have no future. I'm gonna be working bum jobs for little money and suffer throughout the rest of my life (til the day I die). All my loved ones are gonna leave me for someone better, when my parents die and when my brother dies I'll be left with nothing. I'll never share my life with anyone special. I'll have no friends. I'll be nothing. I might as well just throw in the towel and call it quits. I'm just a waste of air, water, and food. I'm a wasteful, stupid, lazy, talentless, fat, unattractive, ignorant, slob. I fucking hate myself to the point where I feel sick just being who I am..."
It's unfortunate because I'm a human incapable of just accepting myself, and that I feel genuinely ill just being in my own skin, in my own thoughts...
I don't know, I just feel so suddenly hopeless about everything.
I feel absolutely worthless, like I'm the scum of the earth.

I'm tired all the time, mentally and physically. If it weren't for the social aspect of my job, I'd be socially retarded, and not a functional member of society.
I'm either losing weight and/or gaining weight; it always fluctuates.
I'm a fucking grouch all the time. And I lost a lot of passion for life. Nothing excites me anymore.

I dunno...
I think I need help.