Hey. It's been a while. I've been going through some issues these past few months. I've never felt this alone in the whole world. My grandma died, and now my mother will never be the same. I'm a huge failure and embarrassed to my family. I haven't the slightest hope that I'll be successful in the future and yet I'm still idiotically hopeful. I'm in love with my roommate but he can't return those feelings. I work a shit job that I absolutely hate. I'm sick and tired of being me. I feel like the biggest loser ever... I don't seem to be going anywhere. I feel like I have no control over my life. I hate myself for it. I wish I was someone else more fortunate... I have a lot on my mind and yet no one is willing to listen to me... What am I doing with my life? Why am I so scared to get things going?